Week 5

There is is something scary about knowing yourself. Mostly because there are many different levels to this: understanding that there is a you, knowing where that comes from, passing the mirror test, ect. However, the most terrifying level of this is acceptance. I used to, and honestly still do this, hang on to being the best at things and rejected myself when I wasn’t. This has ultimately torn me apart and brought me down my whole life. Until recently I never know I thought this way, and until the past few weeks I have never fought it.

This program has made me fight it. I am having to do coding which is something that I so not know how to do and something that has not been easy for me, and I am not the best. I still have to do it and I am learning how to not be angry with it all the time and get frustrated. This is very important yet difficult for me, but I am excited that I am getting this experience and skill out of this program.